y'welcome.

our to do list:

• listen to halloween party pandora station.
• thank ben for showing us how to be so very festive and spooky.

2 years later.

this beautiful creature

inspired me then.

and inspires me still today.

much love joni.

much love cartwheels to car wheels.

happy birthday.

coming soon. to an airport near you.

 

"the atlantic was born today and i'll tell you how.

the clouds above opened up and let it out.

i was standing on the surface on a perforated sphere

when the water filled every hole.

and thousands upon thousands made an ocean

making islands where no island should go.

oh no!

most people were overjoyed;

they took to their boats.

i thought it less like a lake

and more like a moat.

the rhythm of my footsteps

crossing flood lands to your door

have been silenced

forever more.

and the distance is quite simply

much too far for me to row

it seems farther than ever before.

oh no!

i need you so much closer.

i need you so much closer.

i need you so much closer.
i need you so much closer.
i need you so much closer.

i need you so much closer.

i need you so much closer.
i need you so much closer.
i need you so much closer.

i need you so much closer.

i need you so much closer.

i need you so much closer.
so come on, come on.
so come on. come on.
so come on, come on.
so come on, come on."
-death cab.  aka my lifeline for the last 18 months.

wonderful know it all

if i haven't made it clear...i love sufjan stevens. i love him.  please listen. this song gave me the christmas spirit this year, and will do the same to you. also, such a great little, matching vid to go along.  so this, my lovelies, is my christmas gift to you. merry christmas eve eve...

star of wonder
sufjan stevens

"i call you
from the comet's cradle
i found you
trembling by yourself
when the night falls
lightly on your right wing shoulder
wonderful know it all
slightly where the night gets colder

oh, conscience,
where will you carry me?
i found you
star of terrifying effigies
when the night falls
i carry myself to the fortress
of your glorious cause
oh, i may seek your fortress
of your glorious cause
oh, i may seek your fortress

when the night falls
we see the star of wonder
wonderful night falls
we see you
we see you

i see the stars coming down there
coming down there to the yard
i see the stars coming down there
coming down there to my heart

i see the stars coming down there
coming down there to the yard"

finals sound like...

+

=

this.

after almost the entire chirstmas season thinking i didn't have it.

found it today.

tender mercy.

and three cheers for finals!

remember how much i really do like finals...

still true.

tender mercy.  again.

cushion my callous sighs.

i'm always assuming the worst,
but you're going on nonetheless
and there's nothing to cushion your heart led fall.
letters from further away
keep pulling me close to home.
and there's something to cushion my callous sighs.
and I know that you hope for
longer good-byes
embracing for forever
and falling in your eyes.
pouring over photographs.
i'm living in your letters.
breathe deeply from this envelope
it smells like you and I can't be
without that scent. It's filling me
with all you mean to me.
continually failing these trials
but you stand by me nonetheless
and you won't let me sink
though I'm beggin you, I'm begging you
phone calls from further away
and messages on my machine,
but I don't ever tell you this distance
seems terrible.
there is no need to test my heart,
with useless space.
these roads go on forever,
there will always be a place, for you.. in my heart
so I'll hit the pavement
it's gotta be better than waiting
and pushing you far away
cause I'm scared.
so I'll take my chances
and head on my way up there.
'cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten.

.dashboard.

ah.

 {i love this fort we built last summer.}

i love it when i am doing my homework and i can't pay attention to it because i love the song that is playing too much. 
i love it when me and natalie check the mail in our socks.
i love having the windows open.  {it makes me feel like my mama, who loves having the windows open all day long in the summer.}
i love it when we have to change the clocks and it turns into spring.
i love not wearing a coat.
i love jerry seinfeld.
i love thinking about spring break and all the fun we are going to have.
i love packing up my clothes to go home and pretending i am packing up to move home for the summer.
i love adding to my summer to do list {coming soon} and reading hers.
i love that i have been charging my camera all weekend to prepare her for this week's festivities.
i love this song so much.
i love when i look at all my favorite blogs and they have all done a new post.  i love it!
i love calling home and both of my parents get on the phone.
i love planning our new york city/washington dc/philly trip, even though it's a year away.
i LOVE when people are happy in their facebook status/blog posts.  it inspires me.
i love that this kid's going on a mission.  even though i miss him already.

i love this picture.  and i bet my sister would too.

and i love it when people look at my blog.

another beauty.

 

{charlie chaplin.  a new favie.}

smile though your heart is aching;

smile even though it's breaking.

when there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by.

if you smile through your fear and sorrow,

smile and maybe tomorrow;

you'll see the sun come shining through for you. 

light up your face with gladness,

hide every trace of sadness.

although a tear may be ever so near,

that's the time you must keep on trying,

smile, what's the use of crying?

you'll find that life is still worthwhile,

if you just smile. 

i have to sing this song to me every night before bed while reminding myself that glee will be back in a few weeks.  and, ironically, i discovered this beauty on glee.  it couldn't be more fitting.  miss you like crazy finn, rachael, asian, other asian, and most definitely miss sue.  come home to me glee.

blue lips. blue veins.

true or false.

regina spektor is a BYU fan?

well according to her new album

even she's rootin' for the Y!

ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra ra

happy Las Vegas Bowl day!

GO COUGARS!

oh joy.

have you seen this?  well i basically lived it this weekend.  okay.  actually.  i just think i went somewhere so great it belongs in that movie.  In The Venue:  where dreams come alive.

when?  friday night @ 7 pm.

where?  In The Venue.

who?  dashboard confessional.

what?  concert from heaven.

why?  because i am in love.

i wish i could describe how beautiful this concert was.  but i can't.  words haven't been invented to describe it yet.  pictures are worth a thousand words, no?  so here you are...

chris carrabba

is so

fantastic.

the end.

p.s.  yes.  dashboard DID sing ingrid's "breakable" at the concert.  thanks for asking.  i love you dashboard.

good news.

remember this?

well forget about it.  because they're baaaaaack!  dashboard will be in my hometown.  tonight.  at 7 pm.  and guess who's going.

me.
and bfsp.

and i cannot wait.

now alls i have to do if find that outfit i was going to wear...

thank you dashboard.     
        see you tonight.

this is how it works.

regina spektor knows her stuff.  that, my lovlies, is why i cannot seem to get her out of my head!  i have re-fallen in love with this lyric of "on the radio"

this is how it works

you're young until you're not

you love until you don't

you try until you can't

you laugh until you cry

you cry until you laugh

and everyone must breathe

until their dying breath.

so simple.  so beautiful.  so in love with regina spektor. 

if you are a spektor virgin you are only harming yourself.  do yourself a favor and check her out! warning:  you're life is about to be changed for the better!

speaking of being changed for the better...

i also love wicked.

i also loved glee last night.

i also loved hearing wicked on glee last night.

if only.

"Due to a family situation that is beyond our control, we have to cancel our upcoming tour with New Found Glory, Never Shout Never, Meg & Dia and Single File," the band members said in a statement. "We don't take this lightly but family has to come first.... We apologize to everyone who planned on coming to the shows. We will find a way to make it up to you."

if things went according to plans, i would be crying with excitement right now.
if things went according to plans i would be deciding what would look best on me if by chance i ran into...

              

<=this or this=>

   like in the lobby or something.                                                                           

i'd probably end up wearing this...

and i would be in heaven.

but things didn't go accordingly.  so instead i'm going to do homework tonight.  yippie!

p.s. did you know web log = blog?  i thought that was cool.  it's cool right?